U try to fool me again??!!!

we'll wait n see today ..how it goes..if its d same i'm gonna make U n u pay more than it is.

this is how it goes..

One day u come to me telling u need help..if possible..we decided to help but there were arguments bout it..but i still insist to help u. never tot of anything else ..except ..the return from helping u could ease our burden too. never tot of anything fishy goin on coz i trusted u n U. u said it must be d very next day..i sort my way thru it with arguments again..but what do u know??? u r happy coz of me lending u a hand.. but u forgot dat u gave me a date, a promise date dat made us want to help more..cant be later than dat date , coz i need it too.

time goes by and this is how it goes....U been giving us unreliable promises, and nonsense as a reason..who do u think i am??? i admit, i was a fool to trust U at first but now U cant fool me. my patience has its limits to ..and its been a while n u r telling me more nonsense that before! hey U, i'm not a little kid..coz i can wait but dun U test my patience.

between u n U , i dun know what r d lies U r telling u..but U've jeapordize a good relationship.. i guess u never understand the meaning of friendship all this while. so let the lies be the truth n let the truth be untold coz u never want to listen.

U've been telling me more lies and keeping the truth dat i shud know..but now i'm taking my actions coz i'm over waiting n listening to Ur lies. U know wat.. i ordi hate u coz ur lies coz me pain.. i have no rights to be yelled to. u never knew wat U have put me in to these past few months..so let me tell u now and U bear with me too..i lost my interest in my work dat i learn to love more..i've been very moody n i dun like being around my kids..coz i feel sad coz i've taken some of their joy away juz being locked in my room feeling depressed. my anger has taken controlled over me too specially at home.. i have never stop tears from running down my chick..well u n U, specially U..u dunno anything coz u've never been in shoes..as for u. u've been blind coz of U..u can't see my pain, our problem cause by U. i've ask n plead for U to give it back coz we falling apart..for U its nothing..but this is wat i'm gonna say to U..BULLSHIT!

i've learned not to lend a hand to people i care specially u..i have regrets dat u never can understand..i'll remember wat was the line u've said in high tones..i was hurt so dis time i'm never gonna say sori for it nor explain myself ..coz U owe d explaination to u not me foe being a victim after trying to help u..well time will pass by , u'll learn the truth 1 day by urself.

Second month of the year!!!

iddin and ijan went for kindy this yr..ijan wanted to go..so we had to let him coz be4 dis he didn't want to go to kindy..still afraid of the big bully from his last taska.

first few days was ok for ijan until d day hubby sent them to kindy..ijan started crying dun wanna go to skul..hubby had to calm him n he left him there crying...days after dat were like very difficult to ask him to go to kindy..but atlast ijan was orait again..i've owez send n leave them..when it comes to pick them up ijan will owez let iddin carry his bag, put his shoes on, find his water bottle..even to find his bag..hmm so dependent on iddin.. but iddin was very helpfull eventhough he mumbles a lot..hehe..

both were off to kindy..leaving my ifan with me..his routine was like..everyday send and pick his bros from skul..he enjoys it a lot..hihi..

hmmm ..mission accomplish!!! i know its very early to spill out the gud news but who cares...its me life..i'm preggy!!!! yup our 4th child..praying so hard for baby girl this year..morning sickness..hmm dizziness , loya , so lesu..plus stress with yr 1 ..i broke my record, MC for 4 days in a row..craving for pelam masam..all those sour things but less soya drinks la plak..hihi

hmm .. on the 1st of feb , iddin had fits attack..me n hubby were not at home..only with my maid..his skul called earlier asking whether i am able to pick up d kids.. as iddin was not well. i said i've ordi went to skul, so they sent him home. be4 dat i've called my maid ask her to shower iddin n moniter his temparature n give him parmol.. he refused to bathe , so it happen for 1 - 2 mins..he eyes rolled up, sulliver was coming out..she panic and drag him to d toilet.after dat iddin was like very weak/ fainted but mowning..huhu..sian my hero.. hubby reached home 1st ..he said iddin was ok so i stayed at skul....when i came back..iddin was like vomitting the food he ate, water he drank, even d medicine given..he complaint for his backache..we rushed him to emergency @ sjmc.. so he was admitted ... funny thing..iddin was asking to be admitted for no reason be4 this..his wish came true...i guess he enjoyed the previous stay during ijan n ifan time @ sjmc.. alhamdullilah iddin had no fever d following day..during dr. siti mazliah afternoon round hubby asked to be discaj...wish granted..so off we went home, packed our bags and headed to SP.

this time ijan had his asthma, but we forgoten his inhaler n earochamber..so opt for ventolin..alhamdullilah he was orait after 2 days .. but on monday ifan had his fever..huhu..sian nye...precaution steps were taken to avoid fits attack on ifan...sponging him all the time and on time meds..

ok la..enuf ordi...till the next update..

my bb is in its 10th week..yayyyy!!!

miahaha..muahaha...ngehehe

haha...how lazy i am these past few months!!!

i have a lot to blog but i'm lazy to type...too crazy wit my farmvile..ngehehe

let's see... what happened in september 2010.. off course RAYA!!! another family day for TokYah's family..another reward received ' anugerah gila bisnes'..suits me right..muahaha

hmm..owh months before we did Aqiqah for Ijan n Ifan, iddin did earlier as my FIL join the group at the mosque years back. We gathered my husband's nephew, my nephew too..it was a blast..but poor hubby very tired coz he was like the 'tuan rumah' and he's d only child in the family so he's responsible for most of the things.. u guys could guess right how things were overseen, not everyone can be entertained 'personally'..haha. ( but sum people do take advantage for the unforseens..guess now who cares bout dat type of person).

there this 'sequence' during the raya from aqiqah story ..i didn't xpect people tend to b oversensitive and loves to make up stories. Well truth reveals everything so i dont give a damn about those people anymore.. u r no 1 but an oversensitive and will always twist stories just to get attention..man u r an IDIOT damn IDIOT !!!! eh terlabeh sudah..muahaha

SEPtember boy, ijan celebrate his 3rd birthday on the 24th.

hmm what about October 2010??

my iddin n ifan celebrate their 5th and 1st beday on 11th and 30th...hihi

skul/work up to year end....so bz n hectic!!! so i maid up my mind to get preggy again..mihaha ( will it happen???)

November 2010,

we all went with the skul trip to Melaka, we visited mini zoo, bee zoo, noor arfa batik factory, went up the menara taming sari, went on the river cruise (i personally enjoyed it, eventhough ifan peed on me..muahaha)..and for me n hubby..our search for our favourite restaurant in melaka ended on dat day..we had lunch at Restaurant tom yam klasik..before, it was in Ayer keroh then they moved to bukit beruang..the landscape was exactly like the one in Ayer keroh back then..hihi..after a few weeks , we've decided to just drive to melaka to have our 'Ikan siakap 3 rasa'..hmmm..its still d same!!!!..hubby's cousin joined us.

ijan n ifan was admitted @ sjmc. we were worried bout ifan for having prolong fever..started before raya haji up to 2 weeks..ijan had fever only for 2 days n his blood palet (did i describe it right??? what d hack!!) was very high along wit his asthma. went for denggi blood test = NEGATIVE. after 3 days, ijan started vomitting..as advised by govt doc,,we shud bring them back to the clinic or straight to the hosp. so sjmc was d place.. both were on drip..ijan was diagnose with Influenza B and ifan infection. so it was a 4 day 3 night stay @sjmc hotel.. QUARANTINED!!! we tag iddin along coz we cant juz leave him to sleep alone those nights..huhu.

hmm...December 2010..the closure..

We had a plan to accomplish..shall update later on..hehe

Our 6th yr anniversary..planned for chillies but never went...huhu..

closure for the kids skul holiday..so a treat for them..we took them to this indoor playground @ OU but iddin was kinda of not enjoying it.hubby were wit them d whole time coz ijan was a bit scared ...rupanya iddin had fever la plak..huhu..

me n ifan had our time together, we had our 1st tutti frutti treat..i tot of opening an outlet but....work is just around d corner..how to do 2 things at a time...huhu..kos lepas!!!

Next year would be my most challenging teaching experience..YR 1!!!!!

it took me some time..yet..

hey guys .. sorry 4 being so quite these past few months.

its like there so much to do and there so less time.

back to our wish..we've bought a car in exchange for our waja..mpv of course since our family is growing and planning to grow ..

the maid issue...still unsolved..we've installed CCTV to monitor everything and know we both facing problem with these particular maid..dear Allah, help us overcome this ..amin.

kids are enjoying their days..hectic of course..when it comes to evening..they'll start playing , running here and there, shouting and screaming at each other for sure.

and my baby boy is growing so fast..he's almost 10 mths and he's on his feet ..1 hand holding while puting 2 or 3 steps ahead.

me and hubby...we're on a mission for a healty lifestyle..haha..u guys will not believe that i went for it.

working life..i love TEACHING ..

well, its ramadhan...and at times i do feel sad, sumhow i managed to hide it. there are times i can hide my tears but i'm hanging on to it.. its been 3 syawal oredi..how time passes by so quick.

oh..my passion of cooking..still crazing about it..so during ramadhan weekends i'll cook special dishes, not dat special but ok lah.. made frozen mini keria..karipap mini also but didnt froze it. made satay but tak jd coz sumthing was missing.end up buying rempah satay diy. daging masak itam, ayam percik with santan sauce..wanna try the chilli sauce maybe dis weeken..

My 'ayah' past away a week b4 ramadhan kot, cant remeber exact date, ayah's family is like my own family since my parents left me with them went to s'pore many years back. the news was very shocking that i could not stop crying when thinking of it..and there goes my imagination if 'he' is no longer with us..what will happen to me? faint??i dunno.

another sad news , was when my BFF since primary lost her mother few days before ramadhan..afters months being bedriden..Al-Fatihah

October trip that i cant wait, going to Sabah for my BBF reception, visit my sis..checking how she's doing..and checking her HONDA too..muahaha..

okies, till next time

p/s :gud nite n slamat bersahur!

i pray that our wish will come thru..

after months and months of searching, surfiing the net, outdoor 'hunting' (haa sounds fishy arr)..

over arguments, no this i better..nope this one is..no! no! no!..it's this one..

and one fine day..we've come to a conclusion..we've gotta have this.

i'm praying hard that i will come thru and it'll be ours..as a substitute..or as an addition???

just wait n see..i'll update soon...very sooon

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